I was raised Lutheran and chose to consider myself Lutheran up until a couple of years ago. I still understand and appreciate my Lutheran roots, but now I find it so much easier to just say that I am a Christian. I don’t follow a theology; I follow Christ. But growing up Lutheran taught me a lot about liturgy and helped me to grow a lot of respect for the more “ceremonial” high Holy days. Ash Wednesday was always one of my favorite services to go to, and I can’t quite explain why. It reminds us of our sinful nature, our mortality, and that no matter what, our physical body will exit this world simply as dust. The solemnity intrigues me as does the symbolic display and reminder of our baptism. We proudly wear our ashes on that day to show that we are good catholic (little c) Christians who went to church that day. My motivation now is to wear my ashes every day, not necessarily as a black smudge on my forehead, but as an outward display of my decision to follow Christ.
I was constantly reminded of my serious lack of ability to resist temptation and stick to my goals today. Everything really started off great, but as soon as my husband put out an idea for a seriously delicious dinner, my portion control went out the window. It was a struggle, but I know that I at least made some healthier decisions that I had the past few weeks. That is what is important to me. I am not expecting perfection on day one, but I am expecting progress as I move forward.
Eat: I made good choices until dinner time, and then I chose to have about twice as much steak as I should have, and really couldn’t resist the creamed corn for some reason (sweet tooth anyone?). Of course I just had to celebrate National Drink Wine Day, and the Malbec was delicious. 2/3 of the day followed the plan. I’m a bit disappointed in myself, but I’ll take it for now.
Pray: I didn’t spend as much time on my devotion as I had hoped to this morning, but I had some awesome time during my workout to turn on our local Christian radio station and just check in with God. I believe my prayer of the day was “Please help me make it for one more minute. Please help me make it for 30 more seconds. Please help me start to like the treadmill…”
Write: Done. I also wrote a bunch of nasty grades on my students’ half-hearted attempts at a project. Sigh…
Run: 30 minutes on the treadmill first thing this morning. I hit 3.44 miles which definitely isn’t where I need to be right now, but once again, I’m looking for progress from here. I also am deeply praying for warmer temperatures because I don’t know if I ever can like the treadmill.
Tomorrow: Jon (my husband) and I both took a personal day off from work. We are going to go on an adventure and put our cell phones away for the day (except for pictures of course). We are not checking our work emails. We are not answer work calls or text messages. We are just taking time to be young newlyweds on an adventure. I am unbelievably excited for it!